the day I met the angel…
September 16, 2008 by jolene81
There I was, all geared up for my first trip to India…
The plan was good, 1 week in Parthi and another 20 days on a pilgrimage around Tamil Nadu… when I saw the list of temples to be visited, it did shake me… but I thought what the hell… it’s now or never J
As we landed in Bangalore, the atmosphere just felt different (in a weird way)… mum and I got out of the airport and phew… the noise pollution was unbearable… everyone is honking, even when there’s no reason to honk, they will honk… it’s like music to their ears… beats me…
On to the cab and I already felt like I made a big mistake, I keep telling myself, it’s for Swami that you’re here… and it’s Him that you wanna see… so ignore this physical world and get focused (yeah yeah, it’s easy writing it now, but I remember how much it bothered me then)…
We had to travel to Parthi, which is like 4 hours away from Bangalore… and boy oh boy, was the ride bumpy or what…
We crossed into Andhra Pradesh and all I could see was deserts left and right… quite not scary what… and there were these ant castles along the way… huge ant castles and it gave me goose pimples just staring at it…
Anyway, let’s get back to the main idea of writing this piece…which will come soon if I can only get there fast enough J
When I finally arrived at the gates of Prashanthi Nilayam, a peaceful wave hit me… so this is what it feels like to arrive in GOD’s abode…
I couldn’t wait to see Him… but was disappointed to find out that I’ll have to wait till the next day as the darshan for the day is over…
I couldn’t sleep the whole night, excited to finally get this chance to see Him…
We woke up at 4.00am the next day, took our bath, and got dressed and all geared up…
Mum took a small packet of tissue, kept some money with it and our room key…
It occurred to me immediately to ask her what the tissue was for, and all she said was, “You’ll know when you see Him”…
I went like, ya right… I’m sure I’m gonna shed tears in front of a thousand people I don’t know… (cover macho la….)
We attended the nagara sankhirthanam (gosh I hope I’m spelling it correctly)… then we paid our respect to Lord Vinayagar and off to Sai Kulwant Hall to line up…
Gosh, talk about crowd, the crowd was massive even at the wee hour… (and in my heart I’m saying, this is more than the thousand I had pictured earlier…)
We stood in line and got our numbers, not bad…23… mum says that’s quite near and I got more excited…
We sat and waited… and waited… and waited…
Suddenly, there was this loud vedic chanting that started and mum say’s, “Here He comes”…
I got panic and all excited…
And then, pin drop silence in the hall (which was a lot noisier earlier)… His car comes in and I saw the most beautiful sight in the whole wide world…
Swami sitting and looking out the window… He looked so serene, so peaceful and filled with energy…
I could actually see a halo over Him and I told myself, this is it…
This is how GOD looks like and it doesn’t differ much from how I imagined an angel will look like…
He went pass the ladies and I saw Him so clearly until I bet myself that he stared back at me and gave me one of His wonderful smiles…
Then, the car went over to the men side and he disappeared into the back room…
As a cold breeze swept by, I felt cold on my cheeks…
I touch my cheeks and it felt so wet, looking at my saree I saw water marks…
I looked at mum, she was crying to, and without a word, she passed me a piece of tissue…
It felt good; a blissful cry will never be the same…
I never realized the tears coming and I guess one is never meant to realize such moments… they come and they go…
The whole encounter took maybe 45seconds but it felt a lot longer… as if it was running on slow motion…
I could still play it back like a movie in my memory of a thousand pictures J
It’s been two years since my first visit there, and I still can’t find the correct words to describe my feelings and thoughts… and I think in a way, I never got enough of it… for until today, I longed for the day to visit His abode once more…
And I know even that “once” more will never be enough…
I guess one can never get enough at the sight of GOD J
It’s these kinds of attachments that one needs to let go and get over with…
Only when these attachments are rid off, can one lead a perfectly happy life…
Easy to say, and a lot easier to write, but not that easy to practice…
With that, I shall continue my quest of detachment and lead an ideal life… after all… I’m a Sai Youth – Messenger of Love J
well said jols. everytime i close my eyes and listen to the meditation music at bangsar centre, with swami saying asatoma prayers, brings me back in a flash to prashanti.
the world changed the day for me, and life has indeed taken a different direction in my compass. for many months i was yearning to meet my dad, but that day, that glimpse with that beautiful smile, answered alot or me.
i’ll bet you will wanna go to sai surya again?
this time, better learn another language…you’ll never know who you might bump into 
girl, you could really write…It was wonderful and nice…
I think you could produce good books..try working about it…
it may work one day…
all the best….
Deven
Very nicely written sis! Especially the part u explained Him coming in. Gave me that nostalgic feeling
nostalgia at its best, bro!
guys, thank you so much for the positive feedback on my post…haha…
bala and sukhbir, i believe you guys could relate to my post as you’ve seen HIM for real…i don’t think my words is enough to describe that moment…nostalgic and marvellous…
deven, thanks on the book comment, up till writing a book, not yet la…perhaps over time and practise, i will consider it one day
once again, thanks for all the positive feedbacks…makes me wanna write another soon
Good Work Joe,
U really have a flair in writing da.
Below is how will i describe ure writing
“Masterpiece with such Piercing and Deep Rooted Writing”
Personally love this one “… and I think in a way, I never got enough of it… for until today, I longed for the day to visit His abode once more…”
I allready met my angel though